“I’m so fed up!”, that was my very first thought as I entered the hotel room.
Threw the luggage on top of the bed, sat at the room’s desk, took off my glasses, head in hands and sighed.
“What the hell am I doing here?”
Like a machine gun spitting bullets, my head was discharging disconcerting thoughts at raging speed.
At this point in my life, back in 2013, I was in a very dark place.
I had just arrived to Paris on a business trip.
We were getting ready for a major trade show, something that I’ve been doing for the past six years.
I knew the drill by heart and the all operation was a well-oiled machine.
Nonetheless, I was feeling weary.
It was very difficult to change perspective.
Due to a dilemma regarding moral values that I was facing at work, back then things seemed to make little to no sense at all.
I was engaged in battle, one that I would loose later on that same year and change the course of history, ending up in Greece.
Meanwhile, back in 2013, I was missing out on life.
It’s all about the little things.
Five years later, in 2018, as a result of a power outage, my wife and I left home for work, early in the morning, without electricity.
As soon as we got to the office we managed to call the power company.
They said a technician had been sent on site and we needed to be there asap.
I am a veteran when it comes to issues related to “tech on site”.
It does not matter where you are on the map, or if you are dealing with a public or a privately held company, nowadays, when it comes to such issues, most of the times “asap” stands for “htwfalft” (having to wait for a long freaking time).
“Oh, that is just wonderful!”, I thought as I was asking for a day off.
“That is what I call starting off on the right foot!”, I told ironically my wife as I was leaving work.
However, as I was sitting down on the bus, the weather changed from cloudy to sunny and I was able to enjoy a nice, warm and brightly ride back home.
As soon as I got to our building the technician was already there.
“What a nice surprise!”, I thought.
He did not speak a word of English though…
“Excuse me madam, do you speak English?”, I asked a lady that was walking by.
She did! And she was kind enough to help me with the translation.
As it so happens, the blackout had blown a fuse in my power box and I had to buy a new one.
Thing is, according to the technician (an expert on such matters!), this particular fuse would not be easy to find and he had to go on his merry way for that was none of his business.
He had solved the issue outside our place. Regarding the issue inside our place…good luck with that.
Due to the wonders of internet, one of our friends quickly pointed me out to a store near by.
“This material it is not easy to come by. I need to order it and it will take, at least, two days to arrive.”, said the owner of the establishment.
Order placed and head back home to think about what to do, especially with a defrosting fridge.
As I was opening the door, I remembered something.
A few months ago, I saw what resembled home appliances on one of the boxes that belonged to those who used to live in the apartment before us.
Eureka! I had just found one of those very special fuses!
Issue quickly solved, power back on… I had the rest of the day for myself.
If not for small issues and the way I faced them, it would not be possible for me to keep on working on my book (a goal) and fully enjoy the day!
One that ended with a wonderful dinner date with my wife.
When facing a similar issue five years ago:
1 – I would get immediately cranky;
2 – I would be upset at everything;
3 – I would be ending the day bitter and thinking “WTF! What else do I need in my life?”, no matter what happened.
Like I said before, it was very difficult for me to change perspective back then.
As soon as I got back home from Paris, my mood did not improve that much.
Until the end of 2013 things would get a lot worse.
I was stuck and focused on the negative.
I would loose the battle I was engaged in.
I would get an important warning from my doctor.
As time went by it reached a certain point in my life when it finally hit me (better late than never, right?): I was in fact in a state of denial, running only from myself.
I am, in fact, my worst enemy: As soon as I truly realized that, I became aware.
I started to pay attention to the little things.
Instead of thinking that the universe was plotting against me, I understood that it was trying to tell what to look for, what should I pay attention to.
I got back on track and embraced the change.
It’s not an easy process, as far as I am concerned but it’s worth it.
So, five years later my wife and I are in Greece, with a different mindset.
You go down. You get up.
As simple as that. One day at a time.
Whatever lies ahead, I will welcome it.
The journey continues…